It must be so frustrating having all these deep, secret fantasies and always feeling like you can't embrace them. I know you've watched porn for years and while you love watching the women, you could never help just developing some lustful feelings towards those giant, wet cocks either, could you? You've tried to deny these feelings because of what society has told you is appropriate or whatever, but there's really no reason you should be suppressing these desires. So I'm going to encourage you to fully realize that there's nothing to be ashamed about, bisexuality is perfectly natural.