You'd love to be with me, to know what it's like to have my hand or my mouth around your cock, my lipstick leaving marks on the shaft. Maybe you'd even like to experience being inside me. But you've already admitted to yourself that's never going to happen, and the best way you can serve me is by servicing my stud. Put your lips around his cock. This is the only way you can use your body to serve me. You know you want to suck it anyway, but you can use service to me as an excuse.
There's something you've been holding back from me, something you feel shame about. You know you're supposed to be completely honest with your Goddess. Could it be that part of your shame is penis envy? You wish that your cock was as big as his. I'm unattainable anyway. You're a beta & only alphas can please me. But besides being a beta, your cock is too small. And that's why your cheeks burn with shame. You know that you could never please me. It's important to be honest with yourself. That's the only way you can alleviate some of the shame. Try to compensate by being a good cock sucker & taking his whole load.