Since Encouraged BBC Addiction, your obsession has grown even more taboo. This is admittedly one of your deepest, darkest secrets. You wouldn't tell a soul. You just can't stop fantasizing about big black cock. It feels wrong, you know you ought to stop, ought to move onto something else, but this one has got you by the balls.
Everywhere you look in porn, all you see is superior black cock. White dicks don't make you feel inadequate like BBC does, they don't give you the same urges to become a sloppy cum dumpster. You've grappled with the idea, you think you're still straight. But when it comes to gorgeous, slick, black horse cock you can't help but get rock hard, you can't help but imagine how it would feel shoved down your tight pink throat.
The more you suppress your urges, the stronger they get. So let them out here, where you're safe, before you find yourself on Grindr one night blowing a BBC for real. Hell... that actually doesn't sound like such a bad idea..