You've never been a "real man". When you tried to be, you failed miserably. You were never able to please women, you never felt like one of the guys, and you've always been addicted to porn. Since you accepted what you really are, you've been SO much better. I much prefer you dressed up in sexy little outfits, and wigs and makeup. As a man you NEVER looked hot, so at least now, you're learning how to appeal to the male gaze, take cock, and are training to become the perfect sissy cum-dumpster!